Strength

Everyone says I am a fighter.  Everyone says that I am a strong woman.  Most days I see myself as that woman, but some days I don't want to be her.  Most days I just want someone to tell me that it's all been a horrible mistake and I really don't have cancer.  Most days I am so thankful for work because I have something else to focus on besides my health.  I am over analyzing every little symptom and worrying that it is a sign of something serious when it turns out to be simple heartburn.

I am deeply indebted to Melissa.  She has appointed herself my personal assistant and has been absolutely amazing in all of this.  She's been to every one of my doctors appointments and has stayed through both chemo treatments.  She and Chris brought us Easter dinner.  She reminds me of little details that I would likely forget if it weren't for her.  I can only pray that I would be the kind of friend to her that she has been to me if the tables were turned.

Erin, thanks for following my blog!  Melissa talks about you all of the time.  I'm glad she has you for a friend and prayer warrior.